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An update on me and the future of GoNintendo

Hey, gang...I hope you're all doing well. It's obviously been quite some time since I up and vanished from the site, and I know you all have a ton of questions. I'm going to tell you everything I can, and also talk about the future of GoNintendo.

To kick things off, I want to say that the situation I was going through is officially over. It was something I never thought I would go through in a billion years, but here I am. I want to stress just as a I did last time, everyone is physically healthy and safe.

As for the situation itself, I honestly don't know that I'll ever feel comfortable talking about it in detail publicly. I know that's disappointing to hear, as I'm sure you guys/gals want to know every single bit of info. I do not blame you for wanting full details, and I know not getting them is frustrating beyond belief. All that said, here's what I'll share.

The situation hit me completely out of nowhere, and it removed me from everyone/everything I'm normally involved with. I don't want you guys to think I just up and left GoNintendo because I was tired of it. You know how important not just GoNintendo, but you guys are to me. This has been my baby for 17+ years and I've come to know and love so many of you. Trust me, it absolutely killed me to be yanked from my life's work and you wonderful people.

I also want to say once again that this took me away from ALL my usual interactions. We're not just talking about work. My friends and family have been in the dark just as long as you guys have, save for a VERY, VERY select few. I vanished from connections with them, and they've been wondering what's going on as well. It's been roughly 1 week since I've been able to come back to "normal" life, and I'm still working on filling in those personally close to me on what happened. It has been unimaginably rough, and quite honestly, I don't know that I'll ever get back mentally to who I was before this.

The matter removed me from every friendship, every work connection, and just about everything I did in my day-to-day life. I cannot stress enough how absolutely traumatic it has been, and continues to be. Even though everything is over and I can move on, I feel like an alien in my own body. Things that I did in life without giving a second thought now absolutely terrify me, and that goes for even the most simple of interactions. Getting the mail, answering a text, having conversations with people I've known all my life, and so on. I feel as though I'm watching myself from third person when I try to go through anything that was part of my usual routine. It's like some sort of out-of-body experience.

Again, I know it's supremely annoying not fully knowing what happened, but hopefully I've painted a picture that shows how horrible this all was, and how it's forever changed me in a very serious way. I'll no doubt be utilizing therapy for many, many years to come, and I have no idea if I'll ever feel like my old self. I hope this doesn't come across as overdramatic or woe-is-me, but I sincerely do not know if I'll ever be the same again. Just typing about it all makes me immeasurably uncomfortable. I spent those 2+ months sitting here worrying about everything, everyone, every thought, every noise, and so on. Even though I'm out from under the situation, nothing in life feels anywhere near normal right now.

Obviously, I'm sure many of you are wondering what this means for GoNintendo. Again, I know this isn't the answer you want to hear, but I really don't know what the future holds. To be 100% honest, I don't see myself getting back to a mental state where I can pick up work normally again. You guys know I worked on the site EVERY single day for the entirety of GoNintendo, so for me to say I don't see a path back mentally means a lot.

That said, I've had so many fantastic experiences through this site...there's honestly too many to count. From meeting my heroes, working with industry legends, covering the company I loved since I was a kid and so on, this has been a dream come true. Of course, the best part has been all of you people. Site readers, podcast listeners, social media followers, and so on. The amount of good to come from you and the site in general has been an incredible gift that gave just as much two months ago as it did on day one.

Unfortunately, I'm really not sure what to do from here on out with GoNintendo. It kills me to think about it ending, but I'm in no shape to push on. Just like many, many other normal things in my life right now, even contemplating diving back in makes me feel physically ill. I know it's trauma from what I went through and I need help to work through it, but as I said, that's going to take some serious time. Even just writing this post has proved extremely difficult. I've been having some horrendous nightmares about a billion things lately, including various GoNintendo stuff. It's all so, so incredibly difficult right now. I'm dedicated to getting better mentally, but I can't put a time on when I'll be in a better state, or how close to normal I'll ever be.

I have options for GoNintendo going forward, and those are things I need to think through. There are soooooooooo many work people I need to reach out to following this mess. Thinking of all the relationships that were severed makes me feel sick to my stomach. Again, I had zero idea any of this was going to happen, so the frustration those work people have felt is echoed by me as well. It's going to take quite some time for me to reach out to people individually and say the various things that need to be said. Trying to rebuild my life is an absolute nightmare that I know will be the toughest challenge I've ever had, and remedying old work connections is very much part of that. It all has to be done, but I have to make sure I do it with the help I need and the time it takes.

I can't say 100% that GoNintendo is dead, but unfortunately, it's not going to be up-and-running as usual anytime in the near future. I don't even know what "usual" would be at this point, as it might not include me. I really, honestly do not know what's ahead. I'll have to figure things out as I go along, and see what solutions and opportunities arise. There might be something that comes my way that makes GoNintendo close to what it used to be, but your guess is as good as mine as to what that would be. I have so much to sift through and put in order, and that very much means personal and work life together.

To be even more transparent, I have no idea what's going on in the world of Nintendo right now. I've picked up a few things here and there, but by and large, I'm completely in the dark. There's never been a time in my life where I'm so uninformed about Nintendo. The same goes for all my passions right now, to be honest. Gaming as a whole, comic books, pro wrestling, and so on. The situation I was in completely removed my interest and drive to learn about those hobbies. Only just now am I getting reconnected to some of those things, but interacting with them just doesn't feel right. Not to be depressing, but those things don't make me happy or engage me like they used to. I've recently played games with friends, but that was definitely fueled by the desire to hear their voices and get back to some level of normal with them. I've also tried playing solo games, but I end up getting extremely uncomfortable and lost in bad thoughts at the same time. Not a fun place to be at mentally at all.

So yeah, not exactly the uplifting and happy post I'm sure you guys were holding out for, and for that I'm truly sorry. Trust me, I wanted that more than anything. The best news I can share is what I stated at the beginning. The situation I endured is over, and all is 100% well. If I could snap my fingers and forget the last few months, then I could pick up work/personal life tomorrow and plow ahead just like any other day. I so desperately want that to be possible, but obviously it's not.

I do want to share a thank you with everyone who reads this post and has checked in on the site the last couple of months. As of roughly a week ago, I had others inform me of all the comments you've shared, discussions you've had elsewhere, social media campaigns you put together, and so on. I'm incredibly touched that you guys care that much about me and GoNintendo in general to do all that. I've always said that I'm just some random Nintendo fan that obsesses over all things Big N, and you guys have been wonderful enough to support me on my journey. To know that your appreciation and care for my work, as well as me in general, goes this far is the most humbling thing I've ever experienced. I've never understood why I've been so lucky to have so many incredible people at my virtual side, and this whole situation only furthers that. You've always been a part of my heart, and that is something I truly appreciate right now.

My apologies for hitting all of you with such a giant post. I hope it helps bring some closure to the situation, and helps ease your mind a bit. Moving forward, I promise to keep you updated on any future for GoNintendo, but I obviously don't know when that'll be. As I said, I have a lot to deal with right now in both personal and work situations. When I have news to share about GoNintendo, you can be sure I'll bring it to you first.

Finally, on a personal note, there's one more thing I want to share today. Do me a favor and spend some time doing something you love and spreading some joy. Play a game online with your friends, tell your family how much they mean to you, take a day trip for a bit of relaxation, and so on. Enjoy life, do what makes you smile, and make sure you try to bring those smiles to others as well. Nothing would make me happier than knowing you guys are loving life and doing well.

Azure Striker Gunvolt 3 heads to Switch in 2022, 'Development Update' video shared

Fates are sealed as paradigms shift and a new era unfolds. What lies beyond the path toward hope?
Inti Creates' flagship 2D side-scrolling "Azure Striker GUNVOLT" series is back with a brand new title!

Check out the latest news from the development team and get ready for Azure Striker Gunvolt 3, coming 2022!

Thanks to sligeach_eire for the heads-up!

Fire Emblem Heroes - content update for March 5th, 2021

[Events] The Final Results of the latest Voting Gauntlet event, AHR 2021 Finals are now live. The winner is… Lyn (Ninja-Friend Duo) (no end date)

[Events] The latest Forging Bonds event, Seeds of Fodlan, is now live. It features the following Heroes: Ingrid (Galaea’s Heir), Dedue (Dimitri’s Vassal), Kinhardt (Hevring’s Heir), and Marianne (Adopted Daughter) (available until March 19th)

[Summoning] A new Summoning Focus is now live: Seeds of Fodlan. It features the following Heroes: Ingrid (Galaea’s Heir), Dedue (Dimitri’s Vassal), Kinhardt (Hevring’s Heir), and Marianne (Adopted Daughter) (available until March 30th)

[Story Maps] A new set of Story Maps, and more precisely a Story Chapter called Night and Day is now live (no end date)

[Quests] A new set of Quests is now live: Night and Day (available until March 30th)

[Log-in Bonus] A new set of Daily Log-in Bonuses is now live: New Heroes Log-in Bonus. (available until March 18th)

[Story Maps] A new Tactics Drills map is now available: Lion’s Lance and Shield (Skill Studies) (no end date)

[Store] The following is now available in the Store: Special Orb Promo – March (available until March 19th)

Mario Kart Tour - content update for March 5th, 2021

[Tours] Part 2 of the 38th Tour, the Snow Tour, is now live (available until March 10th)

[Pipe] The 2nd Snow Pipe is now available. It features the following: Wario (Hiker), Peach (Wintertime), and more (available until March 10th)

[Store] The following Packs are now available in the Store: Ice Mario Pack, Cact-Ice Pack (available until March 10th)

Dragalia Lost updated to Version 2.5.1 (Android)

Dragalia Lost has been updated to Version 2.5.1 on Android. Check out the full patch notes for today's update below.

■Fixed Issues
・On devices running Android 11 and newer, when selecting “Create/Link a Nintendo Account”, the Nintendo Account web page doesn’t display, preventing users from creating or linking a Nintendo Account.

・On devices running Android 11 and newer, when selecting Other from the in-game Menu then Manage Account Information from the Account Management section, the Nintendo Account website doesn’t display.

This update will only be applied to Android devices.
For users currently unable to create or link a Nintendo Account, please try again after updating to version 2.5.1.

Animal Crossing: Pocket Camp - content update for March 5th, 2021

[Crafting] The following Collections are now available via Reissue Crafting: Wiggin’ Out Collection, Style-Up Wig Collection (available until March 29th)

[Log-in Bonus] To celebrate the start of the 2nd half of the latest Garden Event, Katie’s Living Labyrinth, all players can now claim the following as special Log-in Bonus: pink topiary tree seeds x20 (available until March 11th)

[Cookies] The following Fortune Cookies are now back in stock: Colton’s gilded cookie, Rod’s adventure cookie (available until March 15th)

Check out the opening movie for Mary Skelter Finale

A group of prisoners, Jack and the Blood Maidens, were reincarnations of fairy tales who dared to escape.​ They climbed from the bottom of the tower up to the surface, filled with hope...​

But outside were thousands of corpses soaking in a sea of blood. There stood beings known as Massacre Pink, smiling. In that moment, hope was destroyed. The group was torn asunder, with Jack and the Blood Maidens scattered to their own paths.​

Separated, they are each drawn to the devouring Jail that floats in the sky...​

This is the finale to the tale of the Blood Maidens.​

Thanks to sligeach_eire for the heads-up!

Surreal, roguelite inspired ARPG "Dreamscaper" heads to Switch in 2021, six month progress update shared

Dream a little dream of me.

Dreamscaper, the surreal roguelite action RPG from Afterburner Studios, rises and shines in its latest Early Access update ahead of the full 1.0 PC and Nintendo Switch release later this year.
Dive into the subconscious mind of a woman wrestling with her inner demons. Strike back against her nightmares with imaginative new progression systems that span mediation, daydreaming, quest logs, and more.
Dreamscaper also now sports a fresh user interface and new game flow options so dreamers can jump from one run to the next without returning to the waking world.

A surreal, roguelite inspired ARPG with modernized hack'n'slash combat about lucid dreaming. Warp the dreamscape around you to battle the nightmares that live in a young woman’s subconscious.

DREAM. DIE. WAKE. REPEAT.

Two Point Hospital: JUMBO Edition out now on Switch

Thursday, 4 March 2021 — What do secret government facilities and giant eco-cities have in common? They are both exciting new places to visit in Two Point Hospital: JUMBO Edition – out now on Sony PlayStation® 4, Microsoft Xbox® One and Nintendo™ Switch! Check out how jumbo JUMBO really is in the launch trailer above.

JUMBO Edition brings a jam-packed bundle including the base game, four expansions and two item packs for a total of 27 hospitals, 189 illnesses and lots of items to place in your hospitals! Players can travel to new areas in Two Point County and discover extra-terrestrial species in Close Encounters or join Two Point County’s mayor on her journey to ecological success in Off the Grid.

JUMBO Edition Content:
Bigfoot brings you to the wintery region of Pointy Mountains, where local celebri-yeti Bartholomew F. Yeti, has been petitioning for better healthcare. Mr Yeti will need your help, curing new illnesses such as Cold Shoulder, Bard Flu, and Aurora Snorealis!

In Pebberley Island you begin your adventures in the gentle climes of Pebberley Reef, before pushing into dense, unexplored country in Overgrowth, to finally conquer the stunning Topless Mountain as you attempt to unlock the lost secret of eternal youth.

In Close Encounters rumours persist of an out of this world encounter. Deal with conspiracies, secret facilities and more unusual illnesses like Science Friction and Lack of Humanity. Maybe you’ll get to see some aliens…

For anyone who’s more into Green Things and Mother Nature… no problem! In Off The Grid you’ll manage new and exciting gameplay mechanics. Visit Two Point County’s first eco-city, get gardening and don’t catch any Root Snoot or Green Fingers!

Turn back the clock with a delightful collection of 26 retro and vintage items to place in your hospitals with the Retro Items Pack or channel your inner artist with the Exhibition Items Pack. More information about the expansions and item packs can be found here.

The physical version of Two Point Hospital: JUMBO Edition can be purchased via www.twopointhospital.com for PlayStation 4 and Nintendo Switch. Players around the world can buy JUMBO Edition digitally on all platforms via the first party store fronts. Fans that already own Two Point Hospital on consoles can purchase the new content separately via the first party store fronts. JUMBO Edition is also playable on the Xbox Series X|S and PlayStation 5 via backwards compatibility.

Blaster Master Zero 3 comes to Switch on July 29th, 2021

The pinnacle of mutant blasting action is coming July 29, 2021!

The Blaster Master Zero series answered the call of Metroidvania fans everywhere with the release of Blaster Master Zero 1 and 2, and now the final chapter is here! In Blaster Master Zero 3, the phenomenal NES style pixel art makes its return alongside cutting edge action and gameplay! Hop abroad the all-terrain battle tank G-SOPHIA SV and blast your way through legions of mutants and as you journey into uncharted territory full of new experiences!

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